it's been a month since i wrote anything substantial.
i can't bring myself to focus.

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the trip.
it was so cool. so nice. so africa...
it was brilliant. it was fun. it was unforgettable.
it was one of those life changing experiences; not in a grandiose gesture, but on a very small scale. a trip that refreshes your perspective, makes you requestion your priorities, and eventually makes you want to avoid the reality of your life now... it makes you change the life you were leading, turn it into sth else—regardless whether for the better or the worse, change it nonetheless.

i didn't want to come back.
why would i come back?
the situation in the country is horrendous. evb is bummed out of his/her mind. evb is depressed—including the family who has been going through a rough 2 years, which sucks coz my famiy is the bestest funnest family ever. the work am doing am not necessarily happy with, or at least am not satisfied, so why come back?
and the "why come back?" question turns into "why stay?"

and really why stay?

i keep thinking am wasting time here. that i should take the situation as an opportunity to go do sth else somewhere else since evth is sucking here.
+ i don't like what am doing.
i hate waking up in the morning. i dont wanna wake up.
...
i may wanna be on a vacation all my life.
...
i may be a lazy blogger , Bored... but i don't wanna b lazy and i'm not gonna be.
Am gonna take over the world. or visit it. but i will be lazy nomore!!!

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photos i took with my phone in Africa upon arrival